Dum Da Ba Dee Dum Dum DaDa Ba Dee Dum Dum Da Ba Dee Dum Dum... I am fifteen and looking forward to turning sweet sixteen:) I love everyone because I'm just too nice. I especially love what you call excitement and I'm willing to try out anything scary:)
Absolutely wrong. I'm sorry I'm doing this to you. I'm feeling so desperate I have no choice but to resort to this. Silence me. I want this to end. I can't take this anymore, it's too tiring.
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Saturday, August 29, 2009
Addiction to choir
Woke up at 7am today because I had to prepare for the carnival and set the stall. Ms Wong brought her daughter, Grace. She's like super cute:) Anyway, it was a long day, a very long and tiring one. Haunted house was like super scary, stupid old man! I was screaming my head off okay. Went home only at 3.46pm because me deb and corin stayed in class and chatted:) Very very long since i've last seen corin:( Went home to bathe and eat then went to church(choir). During the mass, I kepting wanting to laugh, I have no idea why. It was fun though. Oh. And webster was like" Girls, today is your last session here right? So are ya'll going to join us?" The the women behind were like" Join! Join! Join!" It was damn funny! Then we were nodding our heads off:) Went to sign our papers and stuff then Webster said" I'm very happy today!" Obviously because we joined choir that's why~ Oh. And yay. We're gonna take part in the Christmas Pagent! And we'll have our gowns and all! WooHoo~ I love St.Cecelia's Choir! I'm not Miss Shee.
I saw you today. My heart ached.
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Thursday, August 27, 2009
Strange language today
Went to Tampines Industrial Park to collect class T-shirts with Xin Yi, Yi Lin after school today. One the way back on bus 27, was damn crowded. Xinyi and I did someyhing embarrassing. We alighted and took another 27 behind the one we're on. Then we realized that the one at the back overtook our bus. Anyway, we decided to alight and take another bus. And that's when this 2 aunties boarded the bus and annoy me... These two aunties boarded the bus like nobody's business because they starting talking very loudly like they were a thousand miles away from each other. The the red auntie was like squashing me( I was leaning against the cushioned stand), I bet she wanted to lean on it for free, you know, like, snatch everything and use everything you see, when 's there's an opportunity to. The I was so pissed off. I was like standing and holding onto the thing for support then this auntie came and started squashing me because she wants the cushioned stand. WTF. It's as if she didn't see me at all. Then I started moving away and I put my leg there and turned towards Xinyi so that my bag was obstructing her way to let her lean onto the stand. Then the bus stopped and everyone alighted(well, many). The two aunties started to rush towards the empty seats. OMG. They continued talking super loudly. The not so irritating one alighted first but not before she said: Ming tian ni you lai wo de jia hor?" Then I dont know what the red one said luh. After she alighted, the bus was very peaceful:) Yay. TYPICAL AUNTIES.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I think I should start doing some voluntary stuff, like going to the orphanage and stuff. I need peace. I need to get away from all my troubles and worries. I feel kinda fucked up now because every now and then, I'll start to get pretty pissed off and irritated at every little thing when's it's not serious and severe at all. I think of you everyday without fail, and I wish that you'll disappear and vanish from my mind one fine day because i'm getting really tired of it. Why is everything so fucked up? I don't understand. Maybe I should be little miss nice and forget all my past and drop off all my grudges and start life anew, doing nothing but study, study, study. Wow. Isn;t that great? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I miss lynda so so much. I wonder how she's doing. But judging by what I saw on her blog, she seemed pretty fucked up too. Hi, partner:)
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Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Rictus- a gaping grin or grimace
I was pretty bored today, so went to Diaso after school with Deb. Ate at macs then went up to Diaso. We practically spent 2 hours there, woo-ing and ahh-ing at all the stuff we saw. I bought like, two pouches. Then I told Deb I'm gonna go there again on Saturday with more money:) Then her face just you know, lit up:D After 2 hours of agony in the shop, because I didnt bring much money, and Deb not wanting to splurge her money on impulse, we finally paid at the cashier. Yay. A happy day:) OMG. Shit you. You have no idea how much I abhor you.
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Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Think, what's my brain for?
I didn't know IKEA's famous hotdog bread is $1.00. How stupid can I get? What's more, it's like, you know quality food. Went there with Meili , bought two boxes of alkaline batteries, ate there, then cross over to giant. Looked around the stationary corner for the balloon thing for saturday's carnival. Slack there a while, while waiting for maisie to call us back. Went around with Meili to see FBTs and like, we went to drink mineral water(there's water cooler). Kinda fun and embarrassing. I can't believe I'm left with not even a single cent for the whole of this week. I don't know how i'm going to survive. Going to Tampines to collect the class T-shirts with Xinyi on thursday, then friday will be games' day, saturday will be carnival and my last week of ministry attachment. I'm sad that the attachment is ending. Had lots of fun there, and it was like, enriching, yeah. I don't care, I want to be a YAC and I want to join St. Cecelia's Choir:)
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Monday, August 24, 2009
Youth Rally
SERANGOON DISTRICT Youth Rally 2009 was AWESOME!!!!! So fun! Yay. Draw more rivers:) Had loads of fun at IJ TOA PAYOH. Saw Jess and Celestine and Marie there! But I didnt see Alex:( Omg. The songs were super nice! Everlasting God, My Life is in you, Lord, Still, AND ONE WAY! WOOHOO! The band was awesome! The testimonials were meaningful, the drama was super nice! I'm gonna miss rallies and con-camp a lot a lot! And all my friends! I hope time won't past so fast:( I love my church-ish friends:) Mel, Hannah, Angelina, Lynette, and many others:(
I'm really scared I won't be able to say a final goodbye to you.
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I need help
OMG. I failed SS, Geo and more coming subjects. Heavy- hearted. I really need to start studying. No more fooling around and loitering after school. Yes, I need to be serious. I wonder if I can do that. Lord, I pray that I'll be able to pass my elective Literature, English and Science Chemistry. Help me to get at least 15 marks for Amaths. Please Lord, help me, help me. Amen. Good luck Shaleen:)
"Laziness may appear attractive but work gives satisfaction."---Ann Frank
DIONIS CAME TO MY HOUSE!!!! OMG OMG OMG! I saw this super shocking photo of this supposedly hot guy, OMG. It was damn SICK! Then DIONIS AND I were screaming away! OMG! Can't stand it! AND oh, DIONIS IS SITTING BESIDE ME RIGHT NOW:)
I suddenly remembered how hot i thought donkey is( well, i still think he is) :) I feel guilty. How could I think that way? No,no. I have to be pure. I'm so tired. I live in a crazy world because now that common test has ended, I still need to prepare for final years alr. Like, now. I miss all of my friends. I want life to rewind back to when we were just 12 years old. Yes, though there's stress, loads, just to prepare a freakin' PSLE, but we really had a fun time together as a class. Mrs.Tan, I miss you too:) Why am I thinking of all this? I feel like some randomo:( I'm currently going gaga over Daughtry:) Okay, I think he's much much better than Kris Allen and Adam Lambert. Sorry. All you fans of the Lambert and Allen, please dont kill me for I mean nothing. Please don't take offence:) --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Music is a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy ---Ludwig Van Beethoven
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Sunday, August 16, 2009
Broken
Yes, I saw you. I longed to say "Hi", but something stopped me. I could only walk past you.
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Saturday, August 15, 2009
Damn Fish
I just bought this bag on impulse which I shouldn't have bought it cos' I don't really like it. Now I don't know what to do with it. I'm addicted to daughtry's songs:) yay. Went swimming with dailing. It was fun. She broke my googles:( She wears googles upside down. Went for choir after that. Didn't have the mood to sing. Then Auntie Susan was like teaaching us how to sing properly. HAHA. And I had problems listening to myself cos' the guys at the back were like BOOM. Tiring. I panted like after every song. Went to hougang mall after that. And that was where I bought the damn bag. Felt really frustrated there. Annoyed. Everything. Youth Rally next week. I don't look forward to it. Well, I know what to expect, which is why I ain't looking forward to it. But I do hope that things will turn out well and it'll be a fun day and erm... night.
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Friday, August 14, 2009
Exhausting
I can finally rest after days of intensive studying. I shall sleep for 11 hours later:) awkward. What to do? Genius. I found out that Ctrl+F5 is the solution to most blog errors:)
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Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Doomsday
This post is strictly only for people who're mentally retarded.
Alright, Chinese was a goner, so was literature. Couldn't finish. Damn it. Dionis didn't come to school today, went to recess with peiyu, meili and melanie. omg. Dionis, I need your help, seriously. I think i need more money. I've been sms-ing a lot, a lot. I don't know why. I dont understand something. She's annoying to the max. What's her effin' problem? Sheltered idiot. Hate you.
:Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out.
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Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Ain't a nice day
Started off with being late for school, Surprisingly and amazingly, I only took 9mins to walk to school. Saw Dionis waiting for me at the cross junction. Next up. Test. Couldn't finish my SBQ. Fantastic. But I really hope I can at least pass this test. Summary was alright, I'm not gonna hold any grudges against er.. Mrs. Tan. I think she looks rich, like those hongkong serials' taitai.
Went to compass after school , OMG. I actually ate hot fudge. It was awesome:) I like the chocolate:) First, Dionis got me addicted to MCflurry, now, the fudge stuff:D Is that considered aa positive influence?
I should start studying, seriously. I don't wanna fail and stay back for another year. It's gonna suck a lot, a lot. God, please help me to concentrate on my books, I pray that i'll not be tempted by the "evils", AMEN.
PS: XINYI'S BROTHER I AWESOME, I'M SO flattered:)
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Friday, August 7, 2009
Fun-tastic
Had red sprayed paint on my fringe for 9 hours. After school, went to Chanelyn's house to eat lunch, then we( me, chanelyn and dionis) went to my house to get money to watch movie. We decided to go straight afetr lunch. So Dionis called her friend Kaira(? He asked us to call him Kaira) then bought the 2pm tickets cos' the 12pm one was sold out and the only vacancy was the front row. Took the train to doby ghaut. Saw this guy sitting directly opposite Dionis wearing the LITTLE MISS LATE shirt. Was trying to contain my laughter. He looked super buffed up luh. Oh, and we saw this group of caucasians and Chanelyn was staring at the guy throughout the whole journey. Okay, reached PS so we went to the toilet. Got out of the toilet then we went to SASA. Browsed throught the perfumes and body sprays. All of it smells the same to me. So it makes no difference to me if I were to choose what "flavour" I want. Got out of the shop, I told Dionis not to tell me how her friend look like. I wanted to guess. Then she said she had a feeling that he might come up by the other escalator. So i turned. Then he appeared from the back. Me and chanelyn said HI. Then he said we could call him Kaira. From the second floor, we went to Times. Looked at the books, not interested. Was intending to buy one. I'm currently obsessed with non- fiction books. Dionis was keeping Kaira entertained so chanelyn and I just walked around. And she was like jumping here and there with her green balloon. Walked to spotlight looking for hair spray then couldn't find it. And chanelyn ended up playing with some fluffy thing. Then we strolled around aimlessly for around 20 or 15 mins. Trying to kill time cos it was only 1 plus. Finally, we went to Cathay. We didnt know the way there so Kaira had to direct us. Saw a few cute guys. Went to 7-11 to buy drinks.... fast forward.... Then met some hroup of kids who looked older then us and it turned out to be Kaira's friends and one of Dionis' friend. They made fun of Kaira luh and chanelyn's balloon. So nasty luh. It was like so many of them luh. Met them a few times. Then Kaira was so embarrassed that he walked away from us quickly. During the movie, i couldn't rip my eyes off the HOT african american actor luh. He's damn buffed up. G.I.Joe is a NICE MOVIE> I STRONGLY RECCOMEND IT TO THOSE WHO HAVE NOT WATCHED IT YET. I think it can be compared to Transformers or even better lor. After the movie, we decided to go to Orchard ION.it was alr 4plus. Succeeded in persuading chanelyn to go with us. Strolled and walked super slowly and saw a lot of people(well, overall luh). And i was shocked to discover that there are 8 storys in it altogether! Went to Muji store, bought chips and 2 pens. Felt so auntie. I was the only one buying then they waited for me. So embarrassing. Went to Everlast to see the shorts but i thought it cost ard 15bucks, so i decided not to see. Wait till I save up then I buy:) Boarded the train at around 5 16pm. Saw Kexin and friends. Reached compass at 5.30. Bought MCflurry and sundae for dionis. Ate and walked as chanelyn checked out the prices of the cakes she's going to buy for her cousin's birthday party. Dionis told me what her frined said. He apologised. Yeah. Good. Reached home at around 6.08pm. Bathed and here I am blogging. Gonna eat dinner and study after this. Gotta watch my hongkong serial:)
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You suck much to the core. Materialistic (new word taught to me by dionis)(credits to her) and sheltered freak. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I want to know who is Hafizah:) Looking forward to watch my next movie at Orchard Cinelesiure. Yay. 2012. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- No quotes today:)
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Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Happiness cannot be measured
I'm really happy today:) One of the best days of my life. Can't wait to watch movie on Friday:) I hope Orphan isn't NC16:)
“Life is given for wisdom, and yet we are not wise; for goodness, and we are not good; for overcoming evil, and evil remains; for patience and sympathy and love, and yet we are fretful and hard and weak and selfish. We are keyed not to attainment, but to the struggle toward it.”-Adapted from T.T. Munger
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Monday, August 3, 2009
Amazingly shocking
Fuck this shite. Omg. Lynda, that is St. Annes Church! And, for goodness sake. Why do you want to tell me that your blog site is at your facebook account so that i'll look for it? Why why why? I just discovered something shocking which you might call it amazing. Believe me, I think you get a shock of your if you get to know this. But if I tell you, you really can't tell him. Oh Fuck. Why am I so scared? I'm blogging with my heart in my throat, all thanks to you:( That's supposed to be a compliment, cos' you just gave me some hope. Alright, maybe 2%. My friend's gonna be damn jealous man. I shall start quoting quotes from some famous people from today in every post:) They're just so inspiring:D I want to be dead too to inspire people. So all you people better remember what I have said so all of you can produce a quote book with all the quotes adapted from me:)
“If we could raise one generation with unconditional love, there would be no Hitlers. We need to teach the next generation of children from Day One that they are responsible for their lives. Mankind's greatest gift, also its greatest curse, is that we have free choice. We can make our choices built from love or from fear.”
Adapted from Dr. Elizabeth Kübler-Ross
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Saturday, August 1, 2009
Anxious
I'm freaking scared now. Webter said cantone next week. And I'm already nervous. Went to Ion Orchard with Mom and Bro to day. Bought a T-shirt, had a Body Shop spree. Awesome:) I want more T-shirts and tank tops. And more dresses too. Then rushed to church for choir practice and mass. Sat at the back row with Hannah, Angelina, Mel and Dailing. Fun time. Received the choir shirt. It was alright. Rather nice. A white collared tee. The sleeve read St. Cecelli's Choir. Ain't looking forward to Youth Rally now. 29thAugust, Saturday, Youth Rally. 28th August, Friday, Games Day. I want to watch so many movies. G.I Joe, Aliens in the Attic, Orphan, Haunting in Connecticut. Usually I'd watch horror movies with Lynda, but not now:( Omg. Miss her so much. When are you coming back?
